Well, I've been counting calories again, and it's good. This path lead to weight loss when I last seriously did it for a long time, so I'll keep it up. It changes the types of foods and the amounts I eat and the amounts of exercise I get. For example, I drank a smoothie today, ate some beef jerky, and had some honey. I also walked about two hours ( Read more... )

My job is numbing my brain. I feel much less sharp than I used to be. I just sit there in an ADHD fit, doing nothing but dulling my senses and surfing the internet and working on asinine things while Adrian complains to me (probably 7 of the 8 hours I'm there). But what do I do? Look for another job that will be the same freaking thing? I have no ( Read more... )

I don't know why I am only gaining weight and can't seem to lose it. Seriously. I stopped my restriction eating because my knee hurt too much to go to Trader Joe's in Chelsea. Blah ( Read more... )

I was quiet tonight at Angelica's show. And I kept thinking to myself, while trying my best to enjoy everything, that I wouldn't be there if she wasn't in it. All I want to do is stay at home or be by myself. There are probably two people I can think of that I would be able to hang out with right now. Everyone else seems absurd or loud or selfish ( Read more... )

I've decided to go vegan 6 of 7 days a week. Also, I'm joining the gym today. I can afford to spend $80 less on alcohol a month and $80 more on my health.

I'm gaining weight again. I'm soooo unhappy. I do not want to be that girl who pretends to fit in her pants, and that was me last night. Not good.

Not good...

at all...

duh duh dunnn

Things I don't have time to discuss ( Read more... )

1. My account with John isn't closed, yet: Apparently charges keep trying to go through, so the account is "pending."
2. John seems to have disappeared off the face of the earth: The banker keeps trying to call him and his phone number isn't working. 
3. Someone stole my metrocard that I paid $104 for. It was good until the 22nd. I'm just lucky the ( Read more... )

So I'm laying off of the alcohol this week. I've been trying to be healthier as well as to lose weight and get into shape. It's been harder since going off of adderall so long ago-I've noticed a bit of a weight gain. But then, I wonder, was it the adderall? Since I moved to New York, I've been drinking like a fish. Everyone wants to drink out here ( Read more... )